The 4th Part 2

07/04/12  Part 2  So once again I smile and wave goodby as everybody goes off to have a good time. I mean sure I can walk to the fireworks, not. Once again I am on the outside looking in. I am so tired of that. I know that is one of the things  I'm working on, but that doesn't help right now. It sucks to constantly sit at home while everybody else does fun stuff. Is that anybody other than me fault? Nope it's all my doing. I am the one that ate myself up to 505 lbs. Am I working on changing yes! Does that help me at all right now? Not one little bit.But tonight is not the night I quit!