Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Bits and Pieces

10/30/12 - 368lbs  Wow what a storm Sandy was. My thoughts and prayers are srill with all of those people who are having to deal with the effects of that storm.
    I hope Connie doesn't have any problems with her flight on Friday. Yesterday she got her printer sold, now I'm praying for her car to sell. So much stress with moving.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Update and Prayers

10/29/12  -368lbs  I have been very light headed and shaky for the several days. Yesterday I really felt bad. Today seems better, so I am very glad about that. Connie's plane lands at 6:10 pm on Friday. I am so excited, I can't wait.
   My Thoughts and Prayers are with those having to deal with Hurricane Sandy. it sounds like it could really bad.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Good News

10/26/12  - 369lbs   Well I survived my day testing. This included 1 IV, 1 Arterial Blood draw, lab work where they took 8 vials of blood, and sitting in a small box for pulmonary function tests. I am so glad that is over!
  Now for the good news, Connie has agreed to fly instead of drive by herself. We were all so worried about her driving that far alone. I think she will be flying on Nov. 2.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Reaching Mini Goals

10/23/12  - 375lbs.  A little over a month ago, I joined a SP mini-challenge, for motivation going into Halloween, and the start of the trifecta of temptation holidays. I had 3 main goals. To exercise 45 min. a day, to walk the circle behind the house, and to get to 375 by Halloween. Today I have reached all three goals.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Short Post

10/22/12  - 376lbs.   The  count down is on til Connie gets here. I am so excited. Thursday is test day, I am not excited about that.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Shots Hurt

10/18/2 - 378lbs.    Note to self, Never get three shots on the same day. My arm is killing me. I'm not even sure which two shots are hurting. All I know is that the arm that got two of the shots really really hurts. I started the anti anxiety medicine so in a month we will see if there is any improvement. I still don't know what Connie is going to do on the 29th.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Results of my Dr Visit

10/17/12 - 378lbs      Oh my gosh, 3 shots, 2 new anti anxiety prescriptions, and 1 new set of bedtime rules later, I survived my Dr's visit. I also got the signed paperwork for a handicapped parking card. Can I just whine for a second that my arm really hurts from those shots. I got a tetanus, A pneumonia, and a flu shot. I didn't want any of them, but my Doctor is very good at talking me into what he wants me to do. On top of that I had a huge fight with Connie yesterday. It was a very sucky day!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Off to the Dr.

10/16/12  380lbs  I am off to the Dr with my list of questions. I so hate going to Dr's. I always feel so stupid. I can't get my hair to do anything, and I know I look ridiculous. Oh well here goes nothing.

Monday, October 15, 2012

I Did It!

10/15/12 378lbs  I made it all the way around the circle path. For me that was huge. I used my walker, to help me , and it took me a while, but I did it.Onward and upward.

Sunday, October 14, 2012


10/14/12  380lbs    I went past my goal. On my first walk, I went up to the path, back past the house and three houses farther to the corner. On my second walk I walked to the path and went part of the way back toward the sidewalk. So I did really good yesterday. I wonder how far I'll go today?

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Today's Goal

10/13/12  380lbs   Goal for today : walk to the path with my walker. I would really like to walk to the path, and then walk to the corner house, but I have no idea how far I can go with my walker. We will see.

Friday, October 12, 2012


10/12/12 -380lbs  So many things happening. I have to pick up another machine for a O2 test for two nights. Connie has to give her notice at work, and she is so worried and stressed out. I am sleeping a lot more, my temper is shorter, something is going on. I have to figure out what it is and get a handle on it.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Connie's Return Date

1011/12 - 382lbs   Car Rental is set, If everything goes ok, Connie will be home sometime on the 31st. Happy Day!!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012


10/10/12 -382lbs      I am calling the rental company today to see about renting a Connie a car to drive back in. I am going to give her a break today and leave it at that. Today I am going to talk about me. I am stuck. Ever since the Pulminoligist told me that pushing if I'm constipated puts to much strain on my heart I've been scared to move, and my weight shows it. I have to get moving again, but I'm really scared. I know it's dumb, but it's real to me. I don't know how to blast this stupid fear out of my brain.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Connie Part 3

10/09/12  382lbs    I think we are going the rental car route so that Connie has a safe car to get here in. Now we have to deal with all the stuff. her other Mom and I think the kids should pack what they want and have a yard sale and Craig's List the rest. That way they could each have a little extra cash. Of course that easy for us to say when we don't have to get any thing ready. If they could each get an extra 100 bucks score!

Monday, October 8, 2012

Connie Part 2

10/08/12 -382lbs   I am continuing my "Connie needs to come to Colorado " kick today by pointing out that I am sick, I don't know how sick, I'm scared, and I miss my daughter! One might think that she is sympathetic and coddles me. Nope, she kicks my butt. She also is very supportive and encouraging. I know she wants to go live her life, and I want her to....after she spends a little while with me. So come on Connie, Pick a date, give your notice, talk to your landlord, and get your butt here.

Sunday, October 7, 2012


10/07/12-  382lbs    So I have these tests scheduled for the 25th and I'm really scared. I just want to go hide under a rock. Since that's not possible I want my daughter here. She does a very good job of telling me to grow up. But she is to scared to leave Wa. She doesn't want to hurt anybody's feelings. What she doesn't realize is even her other Mother thinks her son needs to get off his but and get a job. She thinks he should be paying for his own meds, and taking care of himself.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Good Friends

10/06/12 - 382lbs    It's always hard to say goodbye when you put a good friend on the plane to go home. We had lots of laughter, conversation, quiet times, and travels. It has been a very exciting week and I'm glad we had the opportunity to visit. Now it's time for my daughter to come. She might not stay long, but I need her here when I have to face all these tests.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Day Trips

10/04/12 - 382lbs.   Yesterday my Mom and Dad decided on a quick trip up to Breckenridge. It was gorgeous up there. the leaves were changing and it was cool. I loved it! I didn't love the drive up but that's normal. So in three days, I have been to Estes Park, Rocky Mountain National Park, and Breckenridge.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Measuring Up

10/03/12 - 382lbs  My daughter informed last night that I needed to go back to blogging everyday. Since I trust her more than anybody else, I will go back to blogging every day. Or at least I will try. Sue is here from Ga. It has been fun having company.  It also has made me feel like a third wheel. The differences in what I can do, compared to other people makes me feel even worse than I normally do. It seems like what I've accomplished, or how far I've come is never enough. What is it about parents and friends that can make you feel like a six year old? Why is whatever I am never enough? More importantly why do I give a damn? Why is it always a comparison?