This Week

09/26/12  -383lbs    I went to the Pulm. on Monday, He has ordered a bunch of tests I have to have done. I hope that by the time I've done all of them they have some answers. Me being me, I am scared to death. I so hate tests. I get to go to the sleep clinic on Thursday. It's just been a fun week. On Saturday Sue is coming for a visit. that is going to be so much fun. I can't wait.

Barnes and Noble

09/20/12 - 388lbs   Yesterday I walked a little farther, and went to Barnes and Noble. I love Bookstores! I love them so much, I don't go into them. I can do a lot of damage to my budget if I go wandering the mystery section of a bookstore. I have no self control when it comes to books. My brother and sister-in-law were very generous and gave me a gift to Barnes and Noble. Happy Day! I spent a little over half my budget and I got a really awesome puzzle that has a library filled with books, a blazing fire in a beautiful fireplace, Grandparents, and Grand kids reading, cats, Angels, gorgeous woodwork, and fairies. I have never seen anything like it. I also bought 4 books. I think I'm going to buy at least one more puzzle with the rest. I loved being out shopping! I did figure out quickly though that without a cart to lean on, I was struggling. By the time I sat down, I was red, sweating, and out of breath. I had an awesome time.

Personal Space

09/18/12 - 394lbs   Mom and Dad got home safely from their trip, and I had an awesome weekend playing in the kitchen with vegetarian pasta. While it's strange being alone in someone else's home.It's a great reminder on how much I miss my own space. I miss surrounding myself with candles, and books.

Johnny Appleseed Festival

09/15/12 -391lbs   Back in my hometown of Fort Wayne In. It is Johnny Appleseed Festival Weekend. For those of you who are not familiar with Midwest Fall Festivals, let me introduce you. Fall Festivals include Farmers Markets, craft shows that include hand crafted furniture, brooms, jewelry, and clothes. Pioneer days entertainment, and characters, and food. The smells of open fires and fresh popcorn, roasted corn, ham and beans cooked over the open fire, homemade sarsaparilla. They have alpacas so you can pet them while you watch alpaca wool being spun....so soft. Not to mention beautiful.

It's the Weekend

09/14/12 - 391lbs     Mom and Dad are on their way to Kansas, so it's the beginning of the long weekend. It's always weird being in the house alone. this time though there is a smoke detector chirping to keep me company. It's a beautiful day, and it's the weekend, TGIF everybody.

Quiet

09/13/12 - 392lbs.    Nothing to say today.

Rain

09/12/12  -393lbs.   This morning I actually heard the splash as cars drove through puddles. Now that doesn't sound all that significant to most people, but here in Colorado I think the last time it rained this much I was in the Hospital, and that was in March. For most people the grey skies, cooler temps., and all around dreariness would be depressing. I feel like throwing a party! I'm not even upset about this stupid two pounds that won't come back off. Everything is finally getting that moisture it needs.

Remembering 9/11

09/11/12  I am not posting my weight today. Not because it's bad, but today is a day that is not about me. This is the day we remember. Remember the Hero's, those who lost their lives because someone else did the unthinkable, those who gave their lives trying to save others, those who fought to stay alive in the biggest tragedy of our lifetime, those who worked in unimaginable circumstances to save lives, and the families of all of those I just mentioned. All of those people deserve to be the focus of our attentions meditations and prayers today. Today we remember what a group of people can come together to accomplish. Today we remember what we as a nation felt that day. Today we remember how we came together to grieve and overcome. Today we stop and say a prayer. Today we remember.

Prayer

09/10/12  - 391lbs  Ms L. starts her treatment today, so it has to be very scary. My daughter has to go to the Dr. about her migraines. So today is a prayer filled day. May everyone have a blessed day.

Slowing Down

09/09/12  -394lbs   I have posted almost a hundred a postsand really I think I'm going to stop posting everyday. I am really not feeling it today.

Progress

09/08/12  393lbs  I am 4 pounds away from getting to the 80's. That makes me happy. I have no rhythm and no dance moves what so ever, but I am trying hard to make my 30 min. of chair dancing effective. I know I'm sore and feeling places I didn't know could hurt. I have also noticed I'm getting much hungrier than I have been. I'm not sure what's going on there.

Good Day

09/07/12  - 394lbs   My foot is getting better, my 30 min. of chair dancing is becoming part of my routine, not easy, but I'm doing it. Today, the weather is looking a little bit like fall. Hallelujah! I am glad it's Friday, I think today is going to be a good day. Have a great weekend everybody.

Lesson in Moderation

09/06/12 - 397lbs   I have been doing my chair dancing for 30 minutes a day, but because that mostly involves keeping my arms waving about in the air, I have also been trying to to move my legs and feet moving during the day. I thought this was a good idea. What I forgot however, is that I have very bad ankles and feet. So when I woke up yesterday, I had shooting pain in my right foot foot every time I stepped on it. It took me all day to figure out what I had done to make my foot so unhappy. Note to self moderation is a very good thing.

Happy Wednesday

09/05/12 - 395lbs.  I have nothing to say today. So Happy Wednesday everybody.

Friendship

09/04/12 - 398lbs   Starting today added into my prayers and meditations will be the Mom of a best friend. She got the news recently that her Mom is very ill and will have to start treatments soon. I don't know how to help my friend, I want to give her all the strength, courage, and faith she will need to help her Mom and Dad. She is already fighting  a lifelong illness herself, so she knows what her Mom will be going through. How do I lift her up, encourage, support, listen, give pep talks, and a shoulder to cry on, all at the appropriate times? Please let me be the best friend I can be during all of this.

Labor Day

09/03/12 - 397lbs    It's Labor Day! Time to be Thankful for all those people with jobs, and to say a Prayer for those who are looking for a job. For me, this is the start of Fall. That means I want cooler weather, leaves changing colors, the smell of burning leaves in the air. Fall means winter will soon be here, snow and all of the beauty that comes with it. I want to be small enough so I can wear cute sweaters and boots, and not look like a middle linebacker. Or the Abominable Snowman.

How Far I've Come

009/02/12 - 397lbs    It still feels weird to be typing Sept. instead of Aug. It's funny how everything seems to be on fast forward. Time just seems to fly and yet I'm not really doing anything special. I don't think I'm making any sense, but I started this journey for real at the end of March, when I found out what my real weight was. So in a little over 5 months I have lost 112 pounds. That is amazing to me. That is like Biggest Loser huge. My focus is always on how much more I have to lose. I really have to get better at celebrating what I have accomplished.

Daily Mix Up

09/01/12  -398lbs   College Football has started, yeah!!!!! As I write this Notre Dame is beating Navy in Ireland. How cool is it that those kids in college get to go to Ireland to play a football game. Back in real life, my nephew got the shock of his life yesterday, when he cut into a power wire. Luckily he is going to be okay. My daughter is struggling with all the over-whelming details of trying to figure out a move out of state. Drew's new challenge to me....30 min. a day of chair dancing. That man is one challenge after another lol.